
After our family attended a candle light service on Christmas Eve I confessed to my wife that I might be turning into a Scrooge. As we got into the car to head home that night I felt kind of dirty, like I had just allowed something awful to happen and did nothing about it. It was the same feeling I get when I habitually say "amen" to something I don't agree with and wish like heck I could take it back. I felt like I condoned something that Jesus wasn't super proud of.
Now, please understand that the service I went to was actually really good. I appreciated what the pastor had to say and thought he did a great job teaching truth in a family friendly way. My problem wasn't with the message, the music, the lights, or the candles. My problem was with the Christians.
Like most candle light services the pastor worked to bring everyone back to the true meaning of Christmas. He explained the significance of Christ's birth and what object of our celebration should be during the Christmas season. He was right on but like an ear-piercing siren all I heard throughout the sermon was the droning agreement of all the Christians in the room. I even heard some people click their tongues in pity and disgust as the pastor compared the American Christmas holiday to the real meaning of Christmas. I felt like we were all faking it. We were all pretending that the world has gotten it all wrong and we've got it all figured out. It seemed like everyone in the room was all of a sudden deeply saddened by the lost world we live in and completely forgot what their plans were for the next day.
I wanted to ask everyone what their typical Christmas holiday looked like. I'm sure it looked a lot like mine. There was probably presents, food, family friends, games, traditions, etc. Please understand that I'm not trying to say those things are bad. I did all those things yesterday and they were wonderful! All I'm trying to understand is how we can sit in church and pretend like we're going to go home to worship all day long when we have no intention of doing that. How can we sit there and pretend that reading the Christmas story really fast before ripping into gifts and stuffing our faces with food is so much holier than the non-Christian's Christmas?
I sat there with my candle lit, watching the hot wax drip onto my fingers wondering if candle light services only serve as a club meeting for Christians where we can play pretend and pity the rest of the world. Let's face it, the Christmas I celebrated yesterday didn't look a whole lot different from my non-Christian neighbors and neither did yours. I maintained a mentality that we were celebrating the birth of our Savior but I did not achieve a new state of righteousness by doing that.
I guess I'm just wrestling with the purpose behind the impulsive or habitual things we do in the name of Christianity or Jesus.
What do you think?





